Lord, sometimes I face stumbling blocks that make me retrace my steps and quit. Sometimes I think I take in too much to achieve a course and in my human mind I act on my own thinking. I care no more about what you say about casting our burdens to you or praying without ceasing. The pain people cause on me escalates to heights where I think my pain is above you and I should act on my own.
Pray hardest when it is hardest to pray, it feels hard to do so. Submit to God and do not act on your own thinking becomes a phrase when times are good but not when am aggrieved. I keep you on the side plate as I struggle to chew this bone. This bone of anger, bitterness and pain. Sadly, after all is calm I sing to others, ‘The Lord is my light and fortress’ while I snuffed out your light and leaned on my own understanding.