The True Vine
“I am the true vine, and my Father is the vinedresser. Every branch in me that does not bear fruit He takes away, and every branch that does bear fruit he prunes, that it may bear more fruit.”
I have been so poor in the past, I have had my worst times. I have struggled with my health, struggled with my personality, struggled with my self esteem, self-confidence to an extent that I felt am unloved. I have been suicidal and hopeless, I have been into this world of my own, void with abysmal thoughts meant to incapacitate the spark that tries to light the candle in me.
I was not deep in prayer, I was not that spiritual and neither did I drink my life off, I just thought it off. Negative thoughts then paved way, I was fearful, dreaded of this life that I will see many sad dusks than sweet dawns. I had no voice of my own, I had no life of my own but a life of a beast in my soul. The sweet thing is that I never ceased to whisper a statement or rather a prayer, “God help me.”
All deals that I tried to seal, flopped. All relationships that I tried to build, all that I played my part and gave my all in turned sour. All talents that I worked on matured into more despair than success. My life was in a downward slide, flopping at this speed that deteriorated the inner me. What was left of me was a pessimistic mind, a withered body and a crashed soul. I was in my pruning process.
The branch that bears no fruit he cuts and throws off. I lost all my friends, I lost all the fear I had, I became confident, I became positive, my health greatly improved, I was freed from destructive thoughts and a wacky self. I saw more sweet dawns than sad dusks. I got a spiritual state. I grew into this bold being that was courageous, that cared less of negative criticism and that had positive thoughts about life. The pruned braches of fear, ill health, negative thoughts, lack of confidence and negative friends were thrown to the fire.
“You are already clean because of the word I have spoken to you. Remain in me, as I also remain in you. No branch can bear fruit by itself; it must remain in the vine. Neither can you bear fruit unless you remain in me.”
I started the search to find His face. I let go off my past ways and as I prayed “God help me” He spoke back and assured me that am clean because He has spoken to me, I remained in Him and did my best to let him remain in me because I wanted to bear fruit. I not only wanted to have my fear and brokenness gone but I wanted to have more of courage, more of peace, more good days, increased talents and better health. I wanted to bear fruit.
“I am the vine; you are the branches. If you remain in me and I in you, you will bear much fruit; apart from me you can do nothing. If you do not remain in me, you are like a branch that is thrown away and withers; such branches are picked up, thrown into the fire and burned. If you remain in me and my words remain in you, ask whatever you wish, and it will be done for you. This is to my Father’s glory, that you bear much fruit, showing yourselves to be my disciples.”
I had to accept that He becomes the vine. I had to strive to be the branch. This was not easy, the guilt from sin, the guilt from not living in His ways made me want to quit. But then again when you walk and you stumble on a stone and you get badly hurt, do you say you will never walk again? I realized that I was imperfect and even in my sinningI had to ask for strength. I had to pray for more prunning and more of branch cutting so that I may blossom.
I strived to remain in Him as my previous branches were cut off, the branches of bad company that lead me to sin, the branches of negativity and the branches of fear and low self esteem. I ask something in His name, something that has lived as a testimony in me. Something that I instill my friends to ask from the Lord. Something that I need not go to the rooftops to shout for but something that manifests in my deeds and works in my talents and life. I asked for favor and I got it.
I had the faith that I will acquire it. In every talent that I now worked on I prospered. I saw myself rising from just an average Christian to a man of honor. My blogs grew into these powerful platforms of hope and inspiration that when the branches that bore no fruit started to grow He cut them off. There was a time that I got tired lots of people would complain to me that they read more of me to the extent of re-reading a post 5 times. I got to know of people who yearned to see me and congratulate my work. I got this immense love that I couldn’t fathom. (BTW let me take this time to honor my greatest fans; Lechy Nyambura, Moses Owino, Noel Kimaru, Ean Ingalula and David Chey for constant encouragement, reading all posts in my blog from the 1900 to the 4,000 worded ones. Don’t worry Silomasays merchandise is coming soon)
Because I asked for favor, my blogs were transformed into objects that worked for the glory of God. This is because he says, “This is to my Father’s glory, that you bear much fruit, showing yourselves to be my disciples.” I bore more fruit because I worked for the Lord. I had my favor doubled and God still pruned me to bear much more.
“My command is this: Love each other as I have loved you. Greater love has no one than this: to lay down one’s life for one’s friends. You are my friends if you do what I command. I no longer call you servants, because a servant does not know his master’s business. Instead, I have called you friends, for everything that I learned from my Father I have made known to you.”
I used to quit on people. I believed people were the reason for my downfall. Everyone was a liability. They broke the bro code, defaulted my payments and were my biggest downfall. The world taught me hate and I consumed it. I loathed making new friends and a shift of my personality into this lonely introvert took effect. Because I remained in Him and let His word remain in me, I learnt the hardest thing in my previous life, love. I hated people with funny names and rugged hair. I wanted them to be presentable and straight just like how I wanted them not until I realized that God took me as I am and I should take others as they are.
I can’t really explain how I landed into my biggest nightmare the trio of 3 people with 3 funny names and very rugged hair. People are all queer in their facial expressions when they see me around them. With funny names they looked like clowns and with rugged hair and unshaved bears they looked like Alshabaab militia or ganja farmers. The trio namely; Suspect, My League and Alexis Sanchez have turned out to be people that I hang out with, laugh with and delve into spirituality with. They made me realize that am not perfect either, rebuking each others in faith and getting to learn each other’s weaknesses.
“Brothers, if anyone is caught in any transgression, you who are spiritual should restore him in a spirit of gentleness. Keep watch on yourself, lest you too be tempted”
I cannot imagine Jesus is a friend. I am not His servant because He tells me that am no longer His servant because the servant knows not the ways of the master but because I know His ways, Him being the truth, the way and the light. This makes me so free with Him that I would want to hang out with Him in heaven and I’ll be like, “Hey Jesus gotta, It’s been long man, we only been seeing each other in spirit, wooah you really mascular man, no wonder you are the true vine.” How cool is it that everything the Father made known to Jesus is made known to us?
“You did not choose me, but I chose you and appointed you so that you might go and bear fruit—fruit that will last—and so that whatever you ask in my name the Father will give you. This is my command: Love each other.”
I was glad to know that I did not choose Jesus so that I can snap out of my struggling life but He choose me out of the world. He came to set me free from captivity.
“The Spirit of the Lord is on me, because he has anointed me to proclaim good news to the poor. He has sent me to proclaim freedom for the prisoners and recovery of sight for the blind, to set the oppressed free.”
I was poor, I am now rich. Rich in spirit, rich in joy, rich in peace and even rich in wealth. I regained my sight, I was so lost in the world but I was found, hand picked and set free. I didn’t choose Him, He chose me. It is not redundant in John 15 that He commands us love one another and WHATEVER we ask in His name he will surely provide.
“If the world hates you, keep in mind that it hated me first. If you belonged to the world, it would love you as its own. As it is, you do not belong to the world, but I have chosen you out of the world. That is why the world hates you.”
Snap out of “I am not loved” “People hate me” “Am not that good” “People will say this and that about me” etc. They say His only sin was love. Jesus was perfect, yet He made no sin and the world hated Him with a passion. You are imperfect. You were born sinful, He were born holy so how will the world hate you? How will the world want to consume you? He died on the cross for you despite the world turning against Him and He said it is finished. No more slaughtering of lambs to appease God for the forgiveness of sin as in Hebrews 9:22
“In fact, the law requires that nearly everything be cleansed with blood, and without the shedding of blood there is no forgiveness”
His blood on the cross cleansed you for good. If you were to do an animal sacrifice anytime you sinned, how many lambs would you have slaughtered?
Do not get bothered about the world hating you. We don’t belong to this world as it is written in Philippians 3:20
“But our citizenship is in heaven. And we eagerly await a Savior from there, the Lord Jesus Christ,”
“Remember what I told you: ‘A servant is not greater than his master.’bIf they persecuted me, they will persecute you also. If they obeyed my teaching, they will obey yours also.”
I love because I have been able to preach and talk to unbelievers. Unbelievers who just saw me as another boring boy of the church but through my deeds and works I was able to influence them and they heard me because He promised they will obey me because they of the world obeyed his teachings. I have been able to change lives through this blog, I have been able to change the mentality of average Christians to men of works all through the one who strengthens me.
Guys, my life has transformed from an abyss of darkness into this light of every good and perfect gift that comes from above. I have seen the fresh breath of good health, inner peace, love and joy. All this was through me undergoing the pruning process that ensured the cutting of the branches that bear no fruit to be cut.
Is your business failing? Are you facing opposition? Are you downstruck into this abysmal thoughts? Are you drinking your life off? Are you sinning your life off? Know that He has chosen you out of all this, the big question is, are you willing? Are you willing to accept that it is finished?