Ever since I was a small kid, I have always had this feeling of greatness in me. I always felt unique and great. I always had this strong belief that I will always get whatever I desire and fulfill the dreams that I long to. I always gave my all in everything, always on the do or die motive.
It started way long than I can remember. I was always showered with positive words of encouragement, words that made me feel good and do more. The community would praise me for being bright and disciplined and they would always compliment me in every deed. I have had enough praise, enough congratulatory statements and enough blessing. I have lived with the feeling of greatness and I have gained confidence and self esteem through the words said upon me.
In high school, fellow students thought I came from this wealthy family. Most thought that we were stinking rich and I was this spoilt kid. Nobody really believed that I came from a Maasai village in Oloitokitok. In my freshman years in campus, many believed I was running a family business. I got a lot of respect from my mates and even the lecturers and I grew into this esteemed young man.
I was constantly perplexed of how I was treated. I kept asking myself, ‘Who am I?’ I journeyed way back and remembered things I desired; I wanted to be a basketballer at a young age of 7 because I saw a basketball game on a movie. I wanted to be a pianist because I saw and heard of this piece, Canon by Pachelbel and I promised myself that one day I will play it, I was only 6years old. I played the piece in just a year of practice.
I wanted to be a computer geek. I had a great desire in IT at a very tender age and was already computer literate at the young age of 10.
I was the crowned MVP most times in high school despite seeing my first basketball court in Form One. I became a good pianist in just a year after high school and was already playing in a band and my skills in IT sustained me in campus. I head IT in my firm and I so much love it. In everything that I used to do people would say that am the baddest they know. I worked from my soul. I gave my ALL.
I am still that young boy with big dreams. I am still that lad raised from a single mother who is still a primary school teacher. I have never lacked in my life. I have never been in need? I have always got what I wanted. Is it because we were wealthy? No. It is because I had that one thing that comes from above; favor. With this, I had to actualize it in my life using FAITH.
As I still grow up, many think I am still that wealthy young man running chains of businesses and driving posh cars. Many, and a whole lot of them think that am married and with kids. Not to blow my own my own whistle, most tell me I inspire them and would like me to be their mentor.
It is then that I get back to prayer and cry out to the LORD asking Him what people desire in a broken vessel like me. I ask Him what that is that people see in me and I do not. I think of the people I desire to be and I place them in my shoes. I ask myself, “Don’t they sometimes feel the same brokenness within them? And the thought of ‘I wish you knew’ runs in their minds whenever someone says they would want to live a life like theirs?”
It is so easy to desire someone’s life but most people forget that there is much input to that, that there are fights to be won and armor to be worn to brace the challenges that come in the process of being great. I no longer have people in mind that I would so much desire to be. I no longer want to be like someone. This is because I believe God has destined me to be more than that someone I desire to be so bad. I may want to be like Steve Jobs but God may have bigger plans than what my finite mind conceives me to be.
Commit to the LORD whatever you do, and he will establish your plans.
If people think great of you then you should not be thinking the same. Always be a step ahead in your thoughts. Be more than what people conceive you to be. If people conceive you to be driving a super awesome car, and the fact is that you have none, think of flying a plane because in just their positive thinking, you have acquired it.
If people think of you as a bright person, a mentor or someone they desire to be like one day, think yourself as a genius, think yourself as a mentor of mentors. You are a child of God, a child of the most high. Desire not to be something like His creature but something greater because He tells you that He has greater plans for you. This does not mean that people should not inspire you, this does not mean that you should not have mentors but aim to be more than them. Aim to do exceedingly and above what they do. Strive not to be just another creature. The only person you should strive to be is YOU! The YOU that God created in His own image grows daily, to the better, strive to improve the inner person. Think great of yourself for whatever the mind can conceive and believe it can achieve.
1 Timothy 6:11-12
But you, man of God, flee from all this, and pursue righteousness, godliness, faith, love, endurance and gentleness. Fight the good fight of the faith. Take hold of the eternal life to which you were called when you made your good confession in the presence of many witnesses.
Love must be sincere. Hate what is evil; cling to what is good.
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